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alright, see ya...im not a rain person...my hair fucks up but that was when it was short, so it really doesnt bother me now.

Sinkhole from all the rain we had last night. Felt I needed to share.

damn

can't really tell how big that is

It's about three feet long. Foot wide. I didn't walk any closer because I didn't trust the ground.

I'm posting this here for Ashley, as it seems the best place to.

Members of Bellazon,

I know more than half of you won't care and will probably stop reading after this first sentence but for those of you that do care, this message is for you. Read it carefully, please.

I apologize for the way I left, but I'm not sorry that I did it. Okay, well, a small part of me is upset that I left because I love that place. I, however, feel I did the right thing whether you choose to see it as such is up to you. I can't change your minds about it because you don't know what conversations were happening away from threads. I recieved such complaints about the number of pictures I posted, that it was too many, according to a few people so don't assume this message is directed at you if you were one of them. I understood where you were coming from, I agreed to post less, but it still didn't seem to be enough. I let that slip by though, they are just pictures after all. I know the consequences but they would more be to myself rather than the board. I was willing to take that chance at first but then I decided not to. You can tell by the decreasing amount of times I was actually posting pictures rather than just saying something. In the end, I decided to only post from new events and to only a few celebrities which presented another problem. People kept wanting more. Message after message of people asking for things, even after I've stated numerous times not to do that, people kept doing it. That annoyed me, a lot.

I wish that was all that was bothering me when I left the boards but it wasn't. People on the board seemed greedy and I hated that. Of course my full decision was not from things just on the board, I was having a bad day in general after having to deal with a very drunk friend who kept beating things up and crying over things that hadn't actually happened. She lied to me, she ruined people's belongings, and she made me lose some sleep. I was pissed off and coming to the board and having all of that happen made me explode. I couldn't take it anymore and so I made the decision to leave, especially when people started to say they knew why I was leaving when nobody did but Avada, as I've stated to her a few times that I was about to leave.

All in all, I have calmed down and maybe I'll come back tonight, tomorrow, next week or just at some point, but don't hold your breath. Starting over at zero just isn't appealing.

Sincerely,

Ashley (Lullaby)

well i care....and i read it all...now that i read this...my feelings were correct about why you left....well some of the feelings at least...i do hope you come back.

and your back!!!!

i can put your post count back if you'd like...thats if you remember how much you had roughly

and do i open your thread back up?

The last number I remember was 2,900. Cain mentioned it that's why.

You can if you want. I really don't feel like I deserve it now though.

well i added your posts back....and unless you are not ashley...then you dont deserve your thread but i think you are ashley so ill open it up

You can message me on AIM if you want. The new one I have is a public name, my old one has buddy block and I'll be on it more.

ashley ur back! yay!

so.....

meghan, how are you?

so.....

meghan, how are you?

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Fighting with php. And resisting the urge to stab my bosses with something <_< I need a new job. Bleh.

It's also thundering like crazy outside.

same shit different day it seems.

Abso-fucking-lutely

I didn't even know I was working today until 5:00 when one of my bosses calls me and says "so and so is out front". So I had to throw on jeans, shut everything down, throw everything into my bag and run out the door. Of course when I GET outside, there's no one out there. :yuckky:

Poor Ashley, I ran out on her

dam that sucks.

I'm working on my scans, so I want some feedback on them. I'm doing Ana's editorial from US ELLE first (where she's standing against walls, and in plants and things). I haven't edited the dust out of this one yet, it's just the coloring I'm working on now because that's always been a problem with me.

THAT said, let me know what you think about this scan? Would appreciate it.

hi meghan! how are u?