Bi-Polar Disorder

Hey x2121 im so sorry to hear about this. It must be such a struggle for you. I knew a girl who suffered bi-polar and she was the nicest sweetest person but i saw the change. The mood swings and the suicidal thoughts...its a very scary thing. Do you mind if i ask you some questions because one of my best friends has some problems that i dont really know what to think of. I know she has gone through some stages of depression but i dont know what it could possibly be.

A few months ago she was having a really hard time. She was trying to find a job and was very unsuccessful. Her life was a complete mess. Her parents were basically ass holes to her about everything. She used to call me crying and scream and yell. She often sais things like i want to die and ive thought of killing myself but it startles me i dont know what to say in those situations. As well she has the weirdest mood swings. One second she can be laughing happy and if you say or do the wrong thing she changes and it gets really scary. She has a job now and seems to be getting back to her old sef socially and happier but i still get scared sometimes. I told her to speak to someone but she doesnt want to. I even offered to come with her and be there for her but she said no...I just dont know what to do. Is there any tips you can give or tell me what you went through to realise that you had this...

that's so sad

i know it is a cliche, but everything is up to you. it takes too much energy and too much inner strength, but you are just fighting your own demons. people can beat cancer on their own.

doctors are like, well, u have to have them around you. but they will not to anything if you aren't 100% sure that you are stronger than any diagnosis. medications are just the same.

people around you, your family and pets,and clothes, and guys, these things can give you more than you can imagine... cos sometimes glass is half full.

i am not talking like someone who just wants to write sth and feel better... i have my own issues for almost 10 yrs now... depression,panic attacks... but that's not the worst part... no one can tell me what it is about me and my brain, but, i cannot seem to see reality like for real. everything looks like a dream, like some fog is on my brain, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. for many, many years....

i first felt it when i started doing some drugs, than again 2 yrs later, and now i am straight for yrs and it is like i cannot wake up. i try not to let it destroy my life, but the affects are just scary. like, i am in a club, and at once i feel like i am going crazy...

and none of the doctors can tell me what the hell is that!!!!

alisa not to be contridictory or anything here but .. you are aware of your issues and can be on aware of them because you can remain constantly on top of them..

But I know how a bipolar person reacts to things and a lot of the logic that comes with the problem in more than one person I know.. a lot of the time these people enter into a mind set that they can not seem to stay on top of.. Every person I know has said that they feel like they are literally going insane.. they see what they do and how they react and wish they had some control of it but they seem to have none until the episode is over .. and let me tell you even being conscious of your emotions can not eliminate this problem as it can seem like a switch that goes off in the mind.

It is not like cancer where that is mind over body.. it is mind over mind and when it seems someone else is pushing the switches for this all we can hope for is people around them to understand and be as supportive as possible. It is sad to be fighting these issues and the people around you. I thank God I am not bi-polar .. but I will tell you I am quite aware to look for the signs in me to know if I am..

I can't say I can stop it from coming on or completely understand the mind set but I have a really good idea with growing up with it and knowing as many people as I do with it. Imagine yourself PMSing major all the time.. try to control those hormone urges sometime and see what I mean..

I am proud of you being clean for all these years BTW.. it is an amazing accomplishment to over come addictions.. I know a few people who have also had issues with this "bubble" feeling.. that is what it has been described to me .. a bubble or like viewing a TV. I find it interesting though.. because I also know people with blood sugar issues and one with a medical issue that get episodes that have the same description.. it is interesting how our minds work

now i'm being selfish... but these people you know that had the same problem as i do.... did it stop?

and sorry for not giving you any useful advice, but i think that positive thoughts can actually help... plus, i don't know how old are you, it can be part of growing up.

all i know for sure is that i understand how you must feel. cos when your mind plays tricks with you, it is just too nasty...

"It sucks, because well.. I get so anti social sometimes, then happy, then depressed, THEN angry, and well you know. It goes on. And if someone asks me, I get mad and yell for no reason."

It happens a lots, & i agree ... it sucks!

My mom is bi polar and I believe I might be bipolar. The only thing that works for my mom is taking her medicine ( i'm not sure what she takes) I might be bipolar but I can't really do anything about it because I don't have health insurance now so medication is out of the question. I need to get checked out bc I do the same things I get really depressed then I'm happy then out of nowhere I'm angry and throwing shit and it goes back and forth. It really does suck.

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this is a terible disease. it effects my wife and nearly ruined our marriage and family. it took so long before she was finally able to get the right balance of emds and pull things together. Happily we got through it in the long run, but it ahs left scrs. Anyone that ahs a loved one that goes thru this, i feel for you.

Often we look at the person that has the disease and forget about the loved ones in their lives that it effects, whether it be spouses, children, parents or siblngs, they all suffer alongside. it took alot out of me and there were plenty of times i wanted to throw in the towel, but i am glad i hung by her side.

if anyone needs to talk about this or wants a person to talk about it with, pm me.

I hope you will be fine, with medication snd dome theraphy you can have better conditions of life, and take care your lifestyle too, be careful with the changes, weather and alcohol