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(my t-mobile), therfore we'd get charged for sending it via email. there's a data kit that costs $80 which comes with the serial cable and the software...

what phone do you have if i may ask?

You will be ok, I promise

~

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what cell phone you got?

sony ericsson k750i

i cant help then, sorry

it's alright

so anything with Melissa yet?

a long story...last night she came on after she disappeared early and she said i went to eat dinner and cameron (boyfriend) came over and I flipped out....I was like everyone can come visit you but me, goodnight and I "signed off". She had surgery last week and I just want to visit and bring flowers and see how she is doing and I'm going to chicago next week so I wont see her at all. I never meant to fall in love but I did, its not like I woke up one morning and said I'm going to fall in love. So I've been down, I've done so much for her and she knows it too, she wont let me buy her a damn Ipod for her birthday because I've already done so much for her. She knows I care about her and she knows I'd drop everything to come help her if she asked for help, something her boyfriend hasnt done since I've known her. Yet I cant visit her to see how she's doing and bring her flowers! What she thinks I'll look at her differently because she had to get surgery done and she says she cant talk which means it has to do with her mouth. So anyways I was crying big time lastnight, this isnt very easy for me, it has taken a lot out of me this year, my uncle's employee she knows my situation and she wonders how I do it, I'm a strong person but I can only take so much. I try my best to smile around Melissa to keep it as professional as I can, of course I flirt and she flirts back as well but its not like friendly flirting, its deep meaningful flirting and I cant reach over and kiss her or do anything loving. She knows very well that I have held myself back and I keep trying but I slip up and I cant help it. I dont understand whats so wrong with me caring for her...if I could take a drill to my head and take out the part of my mind that makes me love her than I'd do it and I wouldnt love her anymore but I cant stop loving her.

what?

I don't think anyone really -knows- until the other person tells you... it's really more of a feeling in the way that they talk to you and interact with you. Some people are really good at hiding the fact that they like you, too... so it's hard to say, really.

she tries to hide but i can see right through her

not everyone is that brave though

The things you do...

well how close are you with her?

im pretty damn close to her....anyways i dont want to talk about melissa anymore

how art thou?

oh ok then...

Saw my ex today..it's going to be hard not seeing him everyday like we used too and also, girls are always throwing themselves at him and he likes that <_<

you're better

I've been taking things more seriously than I should; getting upset for no reason, but just bare with me